Back to work-Fail.

Well I tried and I did feel pretty good for a while. Too much too soon? Maybe and Probably. I made it until about 2:30 and knew I was defeated. Lovely Rita came up and said "Go Home" Heidi will cover you. I was actually very relieved. It seemed easier for someone else to make the decision. I went home and straight to bed for 3 hours. I was hurting pretty much every part of my body. My teeth felt like I clenched them for days and my Head was pretty much near explosion. I broke down and called Utah Cancer after hours hot line. Dr. Samuelson called me back within minutes and he was super comforting. Alas, All I can take is Tylenol but it just feels good to know someone is listening to your fears. Oatmeal and Toast w/Jelly for dinner was very satisfying. Took a Hot bath and laid in the water feeling like a warm blanket was covering me. I could have stayed there for days. Of course then the water would get cold. Try again another day. I have to know my limits but I will not let this "MESS" win. I want at least some of my life back.