Oh my goodness. Today I am just beat. Last night I crashed @10:30 pm but my "belly" woke me up @ 2am. One thing about these drugs is they mess up your system pretty good. You get to go 2 or 3 days and NOT be able to "go" at all and then it hits. No fun. I am kind of getting worried today. I talked to a lady last night about what it feels like when your hair first starts to fall out and my head is feeling like that today. It feels like you have had your hair into a pony tail too long and too tight. And as you know I do not have long hair and it's definitely not going into a pony tail. Well I can't stop it so I guess I will just be prepared. If you possibly can. I am sure it's going to be very emotional when I say goodbye to my hair but like an old friend it will come back. And from what I hear it will be fuller, darker and maybe even curly. Wouldn't that be an adventure. haha. I always wanted curly hair. (without the 80's Perm that is).
People say that they are so happy that I am health enough to work a bit. But the funny thing is I really Love my job. I have so many "Favorite" patients and great co-workers so I feel "Lucky" that I can be there. They all make me feel missed and loved. It is to me a very "Healthy" place to be. It keeps me busy and upbeat. Of course today I only made it until 1 but that is still 6 hours in my 1/2 full world.
The best antidote to self pity is immersion in a cause higher than yourself. I love that you're making a point of helping the little guy. Although... I think it's important for you to take time in reflection about what this disease means - to your life, your soul, relationships, life purpose, value, worth. It's not really self-pity in that regard, it's an important journey towards acceptance and faith. Your courage inspires me. Please keep sharing your thoughts. In His grace, -wes
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