Day 6

Going back to work today. Why am I so nervous? Fear of the unknown? I don't know. I like my job and miss all my friends but I am still afraid. Not quite sure how my body is going to act I guess. I decided to do a 1/2 day. Not quite up to the 10 hours yet. Feeling O.K. so far today. Other than my aching jaw, my aching legs and my aching everything else. haha. Took a bath last night and fell into my bed at 9:00. Which was great until I woke up at 3:00 in the morning and tossed and turned the rest of the night. Should have taken the "Happy" pill. Maybe tonight. I am sure I will be tired from working. I woke up first thing this morning already thinking about food. Who am I kidding? I think I dreamt of food all night. Dr. Beck says that eating is the one thing that makes people feel good during this treatmtent. I hoped it wasn't so because I am going to get super fat. On the plus side, everyone that knows me well knows I am a "Junkie" (as in junk food), absolutely no snacks sound good to me at all right now. So I am eating alot but it is "good" for you food so far. My taste buds are gone, my mouth is always dry with a white film in it. I know it sounds gross but it is what it is. Butter rum lifesavers and Jr. Mints are my new best friends. I have been drinking so much water that I swear I could float down river somewhere. Oh wait, maybe that's all the food that is turning me into a flotation device. Oh my I am so funny. Well off for now, Breakfast, shower and get ready for Work. Wish me luck.