God!

So I have been asked a couple of questions lately that have given me some food for thought. The first one is Do I still believe in God? The answer..... Of course I do. God is not just with you during the good times he is with you at all times. I had an interesting experience last night and it might sound hokey to some of you but it was my experience and I am sharing. I woke up @ 2 am and my back once again decided to start spasming. I was worried I was in for it. I was super tired and then hurting on top of that. Well anyway, I got pro active and took medication right away. 2 Loratabs and 1 Ibuprofen 800. Of course then I had to sit and wait for them to work. While I was sitting I decided I would say a prayer and ask for help. Not so much for the pain to be taken away but just that I might be able to deal with it for a bit. I also apologized for only praying "lately" when I needed help. Well within 15 minutes I felt such a calm come over me and I was able to take some deep breaths and relax a bit. I am sure that was an answer to my prayer.

The next question.......... which is kind of funny to me is.............Why would this happen to "YOU"? You are such a good person. Well the answer to this one is "Why not me?" Cancer doesn't care if you are Cute, Funny, Nice, Mean, Old, Young or the biggest beast on the planet. It's totally non-discriminatory. I can accept that. I can even go a bit further andy say "Why not me?" Of all people maybe I am a good candidate. I have a super strong support system. I have a great family and wonderful friends. I have been blessed with 2 amazing children and 1 amazing Grandchild (so far). I am still hoping for more. haha. Oh and by the way I have a great sense of humor that is going to get me through this. I do honestly know that I can beat this. Is it going to be hard? YES! but I will fight with everything I have.

Thanks again for all your support, prayers and LOVE. I can use all the help I can get.