Wow. I actually slept for 6 wole hours. Last night was a bummer night. I think I finally admitted to myself that I am a Cancer patient. Don't get me wrong I wasn't in denial. I just thought it was easier to just have a sickness that was going to just get better with all the medication. (and it will). My emotions got the better of me. I think I am super tired for one which makes everything seem worse. Haven't slept much for 3 days. Maybe today. So anyway, My second treatment was a bit worse than the first as I said before. The Nausea set in big time and none of the little happy pills did anything for it. I am gaining weight from the Steroids and constantly feel hungry yet nothing I eat satisfies. Mostly because nothing tastes good. And what little bit of hair I did have left has decided not to stay either. It was just a sucky evening over all. So contrary to popular belief that I am always happy and smiling I was not. I looked in the mirror and saw a "SICK" person looking back. It was not pretty. But I had a super good cry. Got a bit of sleep and am ready to face a new day. At least I know I am going to get some good ones soon.
P.S. Thanks to my friends who are always there to let me vent my frustrations. It does help alot to get it all out.
Oh Janice. So sorry to hear of your reaction. Blessings through your trial. Love to your heart.
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